However, things soon took a turn for the worse. Tina and her adopted daughter just couldn’t establish a bond with one another. And this began to have a devastating impact on Tina. “I was as blue as I’d ever been,” she wrote on her blog. “I’m pretty sure I felt what despairing birth mothers feel – isolation, angst, regret.”
And unfortunately for both Tina and Julia, these feelings didn’t go away. Indeed, the 40-year-old’s clinical depression became more and more severe. Racked with guilt and shame, Tina hid her true feelings from the rest of the world. Eventually, however, she could no longer keep things to herself.